At the end of the 2025 solar cycle I decided to invest in an astrological planner for the first time, since I was planning to get serious about my study. After reviewing a few options I went with the Magic of I planner, which, as shown below, has a front facing golden eye. I didn’t think much about it. When I seasonally changed my workspace, the planner would come with me. I didn’t have the book open often, so mostly I tried to place it where it would have a good view; it seemed like good manners.
Then a few weeks ago I bought this book stand for my desk, thinking it would hold my journal and Monk Manual planner to get them off the tabletop, clearing space. Instead it seemed perfect to place the golden eye there. Still didn’t think about it much.
See the Sun rays?
Then, over Lúnasa, I bought a few small objects for my ceremonial work. One was a carved wooden shallow bowl, painted gold. Its shape features an eye at the center, with Sun rays all around and a serrated edge. I started giving offerings of my house made herbal incense spell cones in it, blackening its pupil so it could see properly. When it’s not in use it gets stored on a shelf where I keep many of my important work items. I gave this one a spot where it could see out of the front window, or watch over my shoulder when I’m typing.
Here’s the bowl in use during my Lunar Eclipse ceremony just after the peak of Lúnasa:
Of course I already knew very well on some informational level that this symbol belongs to Horus. It’s fairly common knowledge in the pagan community. I’m certain it was somewhere in the basket at the back of the storage closet in my brain. I’m just not the kind of person who goes around thinking they need to be consciously aware of the repercussions of every little design choice. I’ve long since accepted that this sometimes means someone will take an interest.
Anyway, it turns out I’ve been giving him a window into my everyday life for close to a year now. And then there’s all the spell incense to think about. He’s probably been wondering what I’m all about for ages.
On the first day of the new Rave quarter Horus spoke to me in dreams, but he gave me a fake name (as is standard) and wouldn’t tell me what he wanted. I knew him on sight anyway, because I have that skill, so I told him to come back and talk to me when I’m awake. I knew in an Oracle way that he was going to become part of the family, that I would end up with a contract with him at next Summer Solstice, and that there was no way around this because I needed Sun and Earth contracts to balance me out and make me relatable and impactful in the human world. So far I’ve just been working with the Sídhe, Saturn, and Pluto, which, while a magnetic and powerful energy that I enjoy a lot, is not the kind of person I need to be if I want to have a fun and tonally light life during my last time on Earth.
For weeks Horus was intransigent. I finally got him to tell me what he wanted under the Dark Moon, and I had to be really aggressive and persistent to get the answer out of him, eventually resorting to the 20 questions game elimination approach.
He wanted the same thing all the others come to me for. The one on one energetic healing that only human devotion can offer. Of course that’s hard to admit to someone you don’t have history with, I get it. Especially when you’ve spent a year watching them living with other Gods they do have history with.
Anyway, I told him okay. We formalized the bond as the New Moon rose over the horizon. He said he wants to look good for the contract ceremony so we’re doing it at the height of summer. It’s good to have some space between the bond and the contract, like an engagement period between humans. A planning and manifestation anchor.
In the end I conjured this situation out of thin air by acquiring these two products and using them in my devotional practice. It doesn’t matter what my intentions were, or whether I was thinking about him this way. But I have been inadvertently making altars to Horus and burning incense for him all year. Of course this was the outcome. That’s manifestation for ya. You get what you give, even if you’re not ready for it.
One thing I always hear about Horus is that he’s spent too much time in his bird form. This was really the vibe I got sharing space with him at first. It was like he wasn’t used to being all there. But it’s a rule that all the Gods who want to hang out with me need to eat a square meal at the offering altar first, and after a few days of high-energy meals and regular low-stakes social engagement he came out of his shell.
He struck me as an outgoing person who has been let down and become defensive, retreating into his inner self. My goal became to get him to relax. Food is always my secret weapon, with humans and Gods alike, so I just focused on feeding him well. It’s hard not to trust someone who feeds you really abundantly all the time. Everyone I feed falls in love with me.
We’ve made progress during our first week. He told me that it’s easier to be a bird. He can deal with hunger and loneliness more easily. His brain is simpler so he doesn’t have to bear the burden of thought. This is similar to how I’ve experienced depression, so I’m treating it the same way. When the mood is low, and the energy is low, we get out of bed anyway, and we take a little walk around the neighborhood, even if it’s just the shortest possible route. We make sure we’re eating enough.
He doesn’t know what he likes to eat. He’s told me that he’s tired of receiving the same symbolic offerings for millennia and wants me to give him new things to try. We’re going through my usual repertoire, but I happen to have a lot of special treats right now, so he’s getting to explore a lot of great flavors. So far he’s been very rewarding to feed. He prays before eating, asks me to bless his plate, and reveres the food as he is eating, even going so far at times as to verbally name all of its positive qualities. This is great for my love langauge situation, I am a big fan of affirmation because I am a soft-hearted sucker.
The early bond is insecure in its nature for the first three weeks, so for now my whole world revolves around Horus, which I suppose is apt given his role in his pantheon. Sephie is stable now, and the others are well adjusted. I can really give him my full attention while the others entertain each other.
It’s interesting to get to know someone from scratch in this way, and it’s also interesting to integrate a new pantheon into my practice without any precedent or personal history driving the change.
What do you say when you know there’s going to be a love story at the end of the long game? This seems to me like a test of my faith. Am I willing to say “yes, and” when the stakes are as high as this? Turns out my confidence and security is actually incredibly resilient. This one didn’t even rock me.
